Khadijah — We All Dearly Miss You
Khadija was one of the most kind-hearted and well-mannered people I met in my life.
On the 14th of November, I sent Khadijah a message to find out how she and the children were doing. It turned out that she was not feeling fine and was planning to go to the hospital that evening. After running some tests, anti-malaria drugs were prescribed to her and she started getting better.
A few days later, her health deteriorated. She was vomiting and had completely lost her appetite. She got admitted in the hospital on Tuesday the 20th of November, receiving emergency treatments. When I visited her that night she told me that she was feeling better except for the right thigh which she consistently complained about and could hardly even move it due to excessive pains.
I visited her the next morning, we chatted briefly and I left her to catch up with some sleep. When I returned in the afternoon she was sleeping throughout my stay. I didn’t know that would be the last time I would see her alive. I should have stayed longer, stared at her longer and formed more memories.
That evening I called my husband, Abu Almin to remind him to come home early so that we can take Khadijah’s dinner. While I waited for Abu Alamin, Khadijah was all over my mind. I was looking forward to telling her how much I missed having her around me and how I missed us being together. I planned on telling her that she would soon be home and that it would serve as kaffara for her In sha Allah.
I was deep in my thought when Abu Alamin called me and he told me to quickly come downstairs because there was something urgent. As I was preparing to leave the house, different thoughts came to my mind, wondering what was the urgent thing that came up but I never expected the news that I was going to hear.
When I got into the car, he broke the sad news and said, “Ayeesh Mother has passed away”
Innanillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un, Innanillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un, Innanillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un.
That was the most heartbreaking statement, the most difficult to comprehend, and the least news I ever expected. It is impossible for me to express the feeling of losing my closest friend, a sister, a colleague, and my mentor. All the memories (especially in the last 2 years, that we had become neighbours which we dreamt of and hoped for until it became a reality), all the shared ambitions and all the plans felt like they were all dreams.
Khadija was quite a wonderful person with a great personality. She had such a big and good heart. Her love and care for others were very exemplary of the Prophet’s (SAW) hadith:
“One, who does not love for others what is loved for oneself has not truly believed.”
Khadijah’s genuine care and concern were exceptional. One of such occasions that she was there for me was during Amira’s birth. The day came much earlier than the EDD and I was caught unawares and Abu Alamin has had a short trip. Khadijah by my side was a major relief and made the whole difference. She was resourceful, highly coordinating and motherly. She was with me for the next 18 hours until we welcomed Amira.
Her generosity was divine. She is happier and more fulfilled to satisfy others rather than keep things to herself. She has surprised me on several occasions with heartwarming gifts that meant a lot to me.
Khadijah and I were real sisters. We spent quality time together sharing ideas, we were so close that not only our husbands but everyone that comes to our compound would notice. When working in the kitchen we leave our back doors open in order to see each other and be able to communicate. At times she would call or text me “Is your back door open, I have something for you?” or “Can you please come to the back door, I have something for you?”
Khadijah might not be around today, but I will cherish our friendship and all the good memories we had together until my last breath.
Her sudden departure has awakened me and has reminded me to fear Allah wherever I might be. It reminded me to be a good Muslimah with a clean heart at all times. It reminded me that this world is very temporary, to strive very hard for the hereafter, and do as many good acts as possible; for that, every soul has its appointed time and no soul would exceed that.
Sudden dead reminded me to be ready to depart at any time and to always leave amicably and in good terms with everyone.
May Allah (SWT) in His infinite mercy forgive Khadijah all her shortcomings, protect her from the punishment of the grave, and reunite us all in Jannatul Firdaus. May He continue to bless, guide, and protect Ayeesh and Muhammad. May He also continue to strengthen Abu Ayeesh, Anti, Walidah, Mama, and the entire family and give them the fortitude to bear this great loss. Amin.
It is a very tough one but with Allah, all things are possible.